It is now the beginning of May. In a few weeks the season of Spring will end, and summer will be upon us; and the year which is 2014 will be halfway over. As I take a step back to think about all that has happened in the last few months of my life, though I know that I’m blessed, I really feel as if I should be further along in my pursuit of happiness.
So what does that mean “…I should be further along in my pursuit of happiness”? It means that I feel life for me can be like a turtle that’s making it’s way across the sand into the water; it’s like I know eventually I’m going to get there, but though I make the same amount of effort to go places as others, why does it take me so much longer to get there? I guess it’s how I was made… just like the turtle.
There are times where I forget all that I have done and accomplished in life, because I am sometimes surrounded by people who are 10 years my junior. And I honestly don’t really know if I wasted my adult life seeking things that were of no value. And, I know I’m not the only person who feels like they wasted thousands of dollars on a college education that can’t help them find the right job, and in my case it didn’t even provide me with good memories at least.
So, YES.. I feel that this is my breakthrough year; last year was full of problems and stressful situations and I need a good year. And, YES… I’m still looking for love from probably the wrong people, or women who can’t give it to me…maybe. But, one of the best things I love about myself is that I’m not a quitter. I can lose 10 times in a row, but it won’t stop me from trying.
What is it that I want out of life this year? What am I seeking? How can I prepare myself towards my purpose in life and grasp all that I want? I’m taking time this week to figure that all out.
I love that you mentioned college in this post. I have been thinking a lot about the same thing you mentioned. My life has gone a completely different route than those of some of my peers. This year, everyone is graduating with their college degrees and im shuffling around starting and dropping so many projects to “feel like im doing something”.
The more i slow down and think about why i do the things i do i’m learning that a lot of it is based on what society expects of me. I too have been evaluating what im searching for and rerouting accordingly. I hope you get your answers.
Great post! 🙂
Thanks Riah 🙂 !
I don’t know how old you are, but I discern early to mid 20’s??? Am I right 🙂
Anyway, one of my biggest regrets that I have about my life in my 20’s, is that I didn’t take the right chances.
Regardless of what people are doing around you, you’re not going to grow if you’re not planted in the right soil. Take time to open your heart and try to focus on successfully completing one thing, and so on.. because years will go by and you’ll still be busy doing projects.
You have to care more about your success than anyone else. Don’t be afraid to move, or go back to school, or take an internship in Alaska…lol 🙂 . Stay encouraged on your pursuit to happiness!
Thank you so much for the positive vibes and encouragement! And yes, i am 21. (Right in that age bracket) i guess it was obvious?
haha.. no I wouldn’t say it’s obvious. But, I’m 34 and I discerned your age range just from reading one of your blogs and getting an idea of what stage of life you were in. You’re young and beautiful. Keep writing and keep loving..#ImFollowingYou 🙂