Is there something missing in your life that will make you feel more complete? What do you think it is? Is it a person, if you were in love do you think you would feel complete? Or do you think it’s just money, because money is usually the answer to everything.
The one thing I love about life is that nothing is perfect. No matter how much it seems to be perfect, there is always a fraction of imperfection in everything. And what I mean by that, is that everything that is living is always in pursuit of something else in order to better itself. For example, every living thing needs food in order to survive. I don’t believe there is anything living that can sustain itself without consuming something.
Yet, to me, though food is very much of a necessary requirement, it is just one of my many needs I long to meet each day so that I feel more complete and content with who I am. Today I was eating lunch at Whole Foods, and I decided to get a coffee-flavored gelato as a dessert when I was leaving. So, I’m walking to my car through the parking lot with my gelato in my hand, not fully grasping it, my mind wonders as I embrace the ambiance of just being outside. And, guess what? I drop it! Anger builds up inside me… I just bought it, and now it’s trash on the payment. Pausing for a second, I look down. Then suddenly my eyes then just begin to look forward and walk towards my car. There was nothing I could do, so whatever..
I’m beginning to recognize that in my relationships, that my love for someone should never supersede using wisdom, when it comes to what influences how I make decisions. For example, you could love your friends at church, but if they aren’t benefiting you as a person, then it’s wise to not place a lot of energy into the relationships. Or, you could really care about someone, but if they don’t reciprocate the same amount of care towards you, then it’s probably wise to place your cares upon someone else who cares about you. And, I could go on and on…Though I wanted that gelato, I really didn’t need it. I recognized that as I was driving off. Then, as I was thinking about that; just giving thought about what I need in life, and what are the things I just want. Separating one from the other. It made me a little more focused, as well as helped me to feel more content with where I am in life, knowing that I’m on course to be where I need to be and who I need to be with in order to be the person I want to be.
Listening to Lenny Kravitz’s Black and White America Album is so awesome, my favorite song on the album is I Can’t Be Without You. Some of the lyrics of the chorus are, “I’m so tired of this place, I want to hear your voice, I want to see your face. I can’t escape the way I feel about you. I don’t want to know another day without you..Won’t you call my name, ’cause I can’t be without you…” It’s like, I’m beginning to realize that intimate relationships is a necessary need in my life. I just don’t want to be with my future wife anymore. I need her in my life. Even though I don’t know her, I find myself thinking about her all the time. I think about married life more than almost anything else… and I don’t even have a girlfriend 🙂 . It’s time to find her, wherever she is, and make my dream into a reality.
