I love mathematics… math was my favorite subject in high school. I feel the formula to find happiness in life is be passionate about what you do, and have confidence and faith to accomplish the things you aspire to do. But, just like in math class, the most difficult thing to do is apply the formula to various problems (going through life) while being able to show your work (being transparent about life) ☺ .
Earlier this week I was thinking to myself just about all the things I’ve done, and all the things I have yet to accomplish. I think that it’s always good to take time to reflect on life, pray or meditate. In that time I had a revelation. God has blessed me with a lot of skills, talents, connections and favor. And, I felt in a way, I may be “playing it safe” with what God has given me, by placing my talents in the ground and not investing them.
Parable of the Talents – a story told by Jesus in the Bible (Matt. 25), where a master rewards his servants according to how each has handled his stewardship. He judges two servants as having been “faithful” and gives them a positive reward. To the single unfaithful servant who “played it safe,” a negative reward is given.
The formula of life, as I pursue happiness has always been about tapping into my heart. Happiness is more than what you do. Even when I do the things I love to do, I can still be unhappy. No, I AM HAPPIEST when I’m pursuing something, building something, trying to accomplish something, or spending time with my closest friends and family.
For example, working out makes me happy because it makes me feel like I’m bettering myself physically, not because it feels good or it’s so fun. I enjoy working out because I’m passionate about my body. I care about what goes into my body, and how various medicines make me feel (as I deal with epilepsy). Working out is a confidence builder, doing it just gives me energy which causes me to feel better and happy. Just like anyone who invests in a pair of $200 Ray-Bans sunglasses, does it because wearing them gives them confidence about how they look.
Something else happened to me in the last few days, and I have to share it. I am learning how much a woman’s attention means to me, because I love women in every way. And I am becoming more wise to understanding what people mean, when they say this quote which has many variations, “A great man is nothing without a great woman” or “Behind every successful man, there is a great woman.” So, I’ve been getting a little attention from a woman. We’ve been texting back and forth, talking on the phone. And just her attention in itself has literally given me my swag back. I have regained hope in finding love. Keep Hope Alive! ☺ Lol.
Just talking to her makes me feel like I’m cool again! ☺ I know that sounds weird, and btw we’re not even dating (so ladies it’s cool to give a little attention to guys sometimes). Her attention/affection is giving me confidence and validates who I am, in a way. And, I love flirting! Well, not meaningless flirting that’s not real… that’s almost like masturbation; we’re talking and flirting with purpose with the intention of getting together.
You know I’ve always had a hard time finding cool women to date. Idk, I suppose it’s largely due to the lack of single young female professional adults in the Baton Rouge area. And various abnormalities within my life (like growing up on a farm or not having normal urban childhood experiences). People are afraid of what they don’t know. Because I’ve heard it all when it comes to me not having dated a lot of women throughout my life, “Jason you’re not smart enough. Jason you’re not Christian enough. Jason you’re not rich enough. Jason you’re not attractive enough…. etc.”. Hey, people say a lot of stuff and some of it might have been true at the time, but time changes and people change. I’m just happy where I’m at right now and happy about where I’m going. And, I am becoming more confident that I’ll be able to find someone to love, that loves me.