Lately I’ve been finding that I am placing more thought in making decisions on my daily schedule. It seems that to spend time with anyone it requires you to schedule a time slot in their itinerary, with at least 2 days advance notice; just like a business meeting. Then, once it is scheduled, I have to confirm the meeting on the day of, and be subject to change in case a conflict arises. I’m finding that as I place more thought into the things I do, the less I desire to spend the energy it requires to spend time with anyone.
I’m reading more now than I’ve ever read before, on my own admission. A book is more than a whole bunch of papers that are stapled to a binder; but it takes a certain type of mind to see the color in the words on the pages. How has life changed, I remember the time when I used to hate and scorn reading; reading was actually used as punishment. Now when I go to my room, one of the first things I look for is my Bible or another book to read (I also look for my guitar). This is a clear example of the fact that nothing stays the same; I believe even my personality has changed in a way, as my inner confidence continues to grow.
There are few times in which I could notice that my body was different. For example, when I was in my early twenties and I worked out a lot, I remember my brother visiting home and he told me that I was getting more muscular; even though I didn’t notice my body physical getting bigger. But after he told me, and I looked at myself, I then could recognize the difference. Yesterday as I was going to the restroom, immediately after I awoke from sleep, I looked in the mirror and I noticed how time has changed my facial appearance. Not that I truly care, because of the type of person I am; but it made me recognize that time is constantly going irregardless if I do anything or not. You know tomorrow I might wake up and look in the mirror, and I’ll be 35. Then the next day I might wake up and look in the mirror and I’ll be 45. Hopefully my dog Ginger will still be alive, but I doubt it 🙂 .
Nothing else to say. I’m about to go workout…