I feel that I am turning the page into a new chapter in my life. As I mature, I can see with more clarity how my life will unfold based upon my decisions. No I don’t know the future, but I do feel that God has given me wisdom for this moment in my life, and now that I have wisdom all I need is confidence and faith.
So what is it exactly that I am doing in life? Or what am I trying to achieve in life? These questions used to be hard for me to answer. Now I want each decision I make every day to answer those questions. Last night I watched a documentary on the life of Benjamin Franklin. Now everyone around the world regards him as a great man of many accomplishments. He excelled at many things: he was a scientist, publisher, abolitionist, printer, writer, philosopher, musician… he was a founding father of the United States. Watching this documentary helped enlighten me that I don’t have to be just one thing. Life is all about what you make it, and I can’t allow the world define me or place limitations on who I am.
This is what I’m doing. Right now, I’m studying for my MBA… why? Because I want it, no other reason. I love working in entertainment. In the last 4 months, I’ve worked on 2 feature films, and I feel my heart leaning towards acting and other areas of production within the entertainment industry. I also want a lot more than that. I want to be loved, I want someone to love. What is life without someone to love?
A little over a year ago, I moved back to Louisiana from Los Angeles, and I’ve been living with my mom since I’ve been here. It’s time to leave. And, honestly you can call me a “momma’s boy” or whatever, I don’t care. You know, I feel bad that I have to leave, because hey… it’s my mom. She isn’t married, she doesn’t really have a lot of people to help her. My heart goes out to her because I love her, no matter if we disagree or if conflict arises. But, there are advantages and disadvantages to every decision. And, I feel like I have to go in order to accomplish in life all that I want to do, and be the man I want to be.
You know the Fall season of 2015 starts this month on September 23rd, and I feel that another season of life will begin for me as well around that same time. Fall is one of my favorite seasons–the summer heat begins to let up as the temperature gets a little cooler, the color of the leaves are so beautiful in autumn, and it seems that fruit are so ripe in autumn around this time of year (for those who love fruit as I do). Yes, I feel the seasons changing for me.
Just as a seed doesn’t grow in one day, things in life take time. The world wasn’t built in a day, and patience is a virtue. I feel that this next season of life for me will be the time where I blossom.