Have you ever asked yourself, “What did I want to be, when I was younger?”.  Then, consider if you achieved it, or were currently on the course to achieve what you wanted to be when you grew up.  And, everybody is growing regardless of age, though some are growing more in diameter than in actual height 🙂 .  My point, without getting too specific on proving my last statement, is that every day we live is the first day of the rest of our lives; so anyone who has the ability to breathe is continually growing, and living for tomorrow.  We live in a world were the average number of jobs/careers a person will have in their lifetime ranges from 7-10 [average # occupations].  So it can be reasonably assumed that what a child wants to be when they grow up, is not a good question at all.  Because of the low probability of any child ever achieving what they wanted to be, in relation to their occupation, it makes the question in itself impractical.  Yet, the type of person they would want to be is always achievable; in addition to that, a person’s personality is a great way to determine what occupation they are best suited for.  So, the question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”, should probably be asked this way, “What type of person do you want to be when you grow up?“.

When I was a child growing up until I reached my teenage or high school years, from what I can remember I don’t believe I had any real true desire to be or do anything, other than spend time with my brother.  I was horrible at sports, because I was too weak to play plus I was too shy to make friends.  I remember getting trophies that read—Participant—from just being on a football or basketball team.  At the time I thought I was so special, but I would go home and realize that they gave everyone who paid to be on the team a trophy….then, I realized I didn’t win anything at all!  And, I hated even having one.  Even though I’ve always had an affinity for sports, I never really thought as a child I would have any chance at being an athlete (though those thoughts would change in high school, when I hit a growth spurt).

Right now in my life, I know that I’m on the right path; that I’m doing the right things.  Nevertheless, my everyday normal life is getting a little boring for me.  I feel like I need some l’amour de ma vie, some energy or something!  My relationship status is single as of right now, and I’ve heard it said from more than one friend, that once you’re married almost all your conversations will be based upon these three premises:  Work, Family, and Church.  And not that your job, your family, and your spiritual life aren’t the most important things in life, but it’s not everything.  Even now I can see how sometimes I and everyone else around me can become so standard and routine when interacting amongst one another.  “How’s work?  OK.  How’s your family?  They’re alright.  You went to church last weekend, how was it?  Yeah, it was alright.”… not that being married or single is good or bad, but I know I definitely don’t want to live a life of routine, where every day is the same.  I need some color.

As I’ve gotten older, I’ve learned through maturity that my window of time on earth is shorter than I once thought.  I’ve always been an avid movie watcher throughout my life, and I know the difference between reality and fiction.  I have just always been intrigued with how a person could be totally enthralled in love with someone else, to where they would either:…. quit their job for love (like Eddie Murphy did in Boomerang, when he knew he was in love with Halle Berry), continue to love someone and hoping they might love you (the guy in Jane Austen Book Club), or wait for someone to love you for your whole life (like Isabel when she waited for Tristan in Legends of the Fall).  I know it’s the movies and movies are fiction, but I just know there are people who would do that and more for love.  I have been a lot of places and seen a lot of things, probably not as much as some, yet I still feel one of my unexplored destinations in life–“To boldly go where few men have gone before”–is in a close relationship where I’m giving, receiving, and feeling love.  And, I have to get to the point to where I can make that decision to love.  When I grow up, I want to be able to make the decision to love.

You know, I didn’t know what I wanted to be when I grew up as a child, and I definitely am not too sure right now 🙂 .  All I can say, is that I do know who I am right now, and where I’m going.  All questions that deal with my future… I can’t answer.