I feel that I am turning the page into a new chapter in my life. As I mature, I can see with more clarity how my life will unfold based upon my decisions. No I don’t know the future, but I do feel that God has given me wisdom for this moment in my life, and now that I have wisdom all I need is confidence and faith.
So what is it exactly that I am doing in life? Or what am I trying to achieve in life? These questions used to be hard for me to answer. Now I want each decision I make every day to answer those questions. Last night I watched a documentary on the life of Benjamin Franklin. Now everyone around the world regards him as a great man of many accomplishments. He excelled at many things: he was a scientist, publisher, abolitionist, printer, writer, philosopher, musician… he was a founding father of the United States. Watching this documentary helped enlighten me that I don’t have to be just one thing. Life is all about what you make it, and I can’t allow the world define me or place limitations on who I am.
This is what I’m doing. Right now, I’m studying for my MBA… why? Because I want it, no other reason. I love working in entertainment. In the last 4 months, I’ve worked on 2 feature films, and I feel my heart leaning towards acting and other areas of production within the entertainment industry. I also want a lot more than that. I want to be loved, I want someone to love. What is life without someone to love?
A little over a year ago, I moved back to Louisiana from Los Angeles, and I’ve been living with my mom since I’ve been here. It’s time to leave. And, honestly you can call me a “momma’s boy” or whatever, I don’t care. You know, I feel bad that I have to leave, because hey… it’s my mom. She isn’t married, she doesn’t really have a lot of people to help her. My heart goes out to her because I love her, no matter if we disagree or if conflict arises. But, there are advantages and disadvantages to every decision. And, I feel like I have to go in order to accomplish in life all that I want to do, and be the man I want to be.
You know the Fall season of 2015 starts this month on September 23rd, and I feel that another season of life will begin for me as well around that same time. Fall is one of my favorite seasons–the summer heat begins to let up as the temperature gets a little cooler, the color of the leaves are so beautiful in autumn, and it seems that fruit are so ripe in autumn around this time of year (for those who love fruit as I do). Yes, I feel the seasons changing for me.
Just as a seed doesn’t grow in one day, things in life take time. The world wasn’t built in a day, and patience is a virtue. I feel that this next season of life for me will be the time where I blossom.
Jason, I enjoyed reading your comments and wish you well on your next step of the journey. Just a thought from the standpoint of wisdom, and I hope you don’t mind me saying, but sometimes going from one extreme to another is a tip that the enemy is at work. This is not a rule or Biblical principle, just advise from a friend. I know you will miss your mom and family when you leave, and that does not make you weak, but strong in my opinion. I know you have your acting career to think about, but I can’t help but wonder if it would be more wise to live somewhere closer to your family, closer than say, L.A? At least you would not have to do without your family for such long periods of time. Speaking as s mother of two adults who live far away, I think that no being able to visit home easily can contribute to the feeling of isolation for the son or daughter who leaves, and it tends to accentuate the longing for the magical person to show up and make everything okay. So anyway, that’s my thoughts on the matter. Living independently can happen anywhere. I say forget about whether or not people think you are weak or strong. You are complete in Christ. Be blessed, and I wish you the best at all times.
Well thanks for caring enough to comment! Though I don’t know what exactly you mean by going from one extreme to another, in my situation… but I agree with you on moving across the country. Right now I’m just following my heart, going in the direction I feel God is leading me.
I love what you said about being more than just one thing. You should never limit yourself! Small minds see limits, great minds see never ending possibilities. Be whomever you want to be 🙂
“Just as a seed doesn’t grow in one day, things in life take time. The world wasn’t built in a day, and patience is a virtue.” Well said, Jason!
Thanks!