A lot of people think I look into things too deeply. They say I’m too analytical. Maybe I need to be a little more superficial and not take people at their word or value their actions. You know what… maybe in some cases they are right. I’m not too prideful enough to say that. Sometimes I do take life a little too seriously. Sometimes I may act with a little too much conviction. Sometimes I do get a little too emotional. But that’s me.
Whether I am overly analytical, have faults in other people’s eyes, or offend people by how I live my life… I’m not sorry for who I am. I try hard to live my life the best I can. Though I’m not perfect by any means. I truly make an effort to help others, live humbly, be appreciative, make time for people, and be attentive to the feelings of others. And, I try to do everything in love without expecting too much if anything in return.
I feel everyone makes decisions in life on what they want to do, and what they don’t want to do. My success and failure in life lies greatly on what I do, who I know, and who I am. One of the things I learned early in life is that when it’s gametime… there are no do-overs. If you miss the shot, who are you going to say “I’m sorry” to? You just missed the shot, so see what you did wrong and try again. Or if you missed the game-winning shot, just pack your bags and go home.
Now some mistakes are God’s teachable moments and are meant for growth purposes. And, by God’s grace, I may have another chance to do something the right way. I just can’t stand it when people feel like they can make errors and not be accountable for them. They feel that “I’m sorry” is sufficient and what they said or did should be just swept under the rug.
I feel the phrase, “I’m sorry”, has slowly become something that people say, and the true meaning of it has been lost because it has been overly used. When I say, “I’m sorry”, what I mean is this — Please forgive me. I wish that didn’t happen. I’ll try and change this from happening again if I can.
Though I’m not too prideful enough to ask for forgiveness, or say “I’m sorry”, I rarely feel I need to say it because I am true to myself, I act out of love, and I’m willing to accept the repercussions of my actions. Now I make mistakes! I say things that I shouldn’t say, I do things I shouldn’t do. And, I’m sorry if I do something that has hurt or offended anyone, as it was most likely not my intent. But, I’m not sorry for being who I am, for living the lifestyle I have chosen, for my personality, or for what I believe in. Love me or hate me, or whether anyone appreciates me for what I do, I’m proud of me… and I’m proud to be me.