What Is It That You Seek?

It is now the beginning of May. In a few weeks the season of Spring will end, and summer will be upon us; and the year which is 2014 will be halfway over. As I take a step back to think about all that has happened in the last few months of my life, though I know that I’m blessed, I really feel as if I should be further along in my pursuit of happiness.

So what does that mean “…I should be further along in my pursuit of happiness”? It means that I feel life for me can be like a turtle that’s making it’s way across the sand into the water; it’s like I know eventually I’m going to get there, but though I make the same amount of effort to go places as others, why does it take me so much longer to get there? I guess it’s how I was made… just like the turtle.

There are times where I forget all that I have done and accomplished in life, because I am sometimes surrounded by people who are 10 years my junior. And I honestly don’t really know if I wasted my adult life seeking things that were of no value. And, I know I’m not the only person who feels like they wasted thousands of dollars on a college education that can’t help them find the right job, and in my case it didn’t even provide me with good memories at least.

So, YES.. I feel that this is my breakthrough year; last year was full of problems and stressful situations and I need a good year. And, YES… I’m still looking for love from probably the wrong people, or women who can’t give it to me…maybe. But, one of the best things I love about myself is that I’m not a quitter. I can lose 10 times in a row, but it won’t stop me from trying.

What is it that I want out of life this year? What am I seeking? How can I prepare myself towards my purpose in life and grasp all that I want? I’m taking time this week to figure that all out.